Even the best fall down sometimes.

A week ago friday my dad went to Kalamazoo for an MRI of his brain. Tuesday the results were in, a tumor was found. Wednesday, more tests. Thursday more answers, more tumors, this time on his lungs, liver, and other abdomine regions. Scary. However, they have not told us definitivly if it is cancer. His blood work and labs have been normal so cancer does not seem like a viable explainiation. But it also seems like the only explaination. Even Scarier.
So, I wasnt sleeping very well, lots of crying was going on. I feel like even if I tried, I couldnt cry anymore. Im not physically able to.
After the intial shock, sadness, fear and anger passed I felt.....peaceful? Maybe not exactly all the way at peace with what is happening but peaceful in that I have realized that my hurt, and worry is not going to make the situation change. And it definitly isnt helping me feel any better about it.
Lots of prayers have been said, from me, from my mom, from you, and from other people.
I won't pertend that this is easy and I'm fine with having to go through it again because I'm not. But in one of my many spouts with God this week I remembered what I said at the beginning of this year, that I was going to praise Him, no matter what. That I was going to take comfort in knowing He doesn't do things to harm us. There must be something better, or something to learn. This is definitly increasing and producing much faith in the Hays/Stephenson household.
God is so Good.
Would you remember that? For me?
Sometimes its hard, and sometimes it hurts but He is soooo good. And He loves us so much.
Please be praying that I am led in the direction I should go as far as my future stands. As many of you know, I work at camp in the summer time, but because of the situation right now that does not look like a possibility for me. I planned to leave for Costa Rica ing September and I feel that I need to be with my family before I leave. This is hard for me because I lve my job at Pine Ridge. And if that is not what God would have me to do then I pray His calling is clear to me.

Love&Rockets
Aggie.