It is Wednesday night.
2 days until Christmas break. I should be excited and completly pumped, right?!
Well, in the words of Mr. Grinch;
WRONG-OO!
I am in the weirdest, most emotional, most angry, most tired mood.
EVER!
Idont know why, but I pretty much hate the world.
There is no one, except God of course, that I can talk to without getting angry.
And sometimes thats not even true.
I dont understand why I feel this way.
Cant other people share this pain, and anger?
Of Course Not.
That would be much too fair.
"Aggie, You are such a strong, put together, beautiful, couragous young lady.."
Yeah, thats what I hear.
Punch me in the gut.
Excuse me but I dont WANT to be strong.
I dont WANT to be put together.
I dont WANT to be couragous.
I WANT TO BE ANGRY!!
AND I WANT TO BE MEAN
AND I WANT TO BE RUDE
AND I WANT TO COMPLAIN
But I cant, because Im too busy listening to other peoples problems.
or complaints.
or grades.
or good lives.
or terrible lives.
For once, just once, I want to be the one running to someone with my head down, blubbering and punching things and yelling and complaining.
And people say, Im selfish?
I just dont understand.
My prayer:
"Help me Lord, to get out of this funk, to make myself feel greatly appreciated, to take away these mixed emotions and just give me LOVE and a heart of sacrifice for you.."
Love&Rockets
Aggie.
P.S. I LOATHE Christmas.
HateHateHate!!
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