Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Caring!

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I  DO care, Don't I?

I can do all things. Nope, no I cant.

F.E.A.R.

The Biggest, Scariest, Four letter word ever.
This word stops ME from doing sooo much. But why?! Why is it that I cant get over this stupid, useless four letter word. I mean its not like the word is going to punish me if I do what I want.
SO WHY IS THIS HAPPENING???!!
I should be grown up enough to not let this four letter word stop me from living my life.
But, I'm not.
I can't.
I can't get over this. Fear is stopping me from loving the people that I want to love, doing the things I want to do and saying the things that I want to say.

F.E.A.R. is not my friend.
So, Fear, I hate you.
Love&Rockets
Aggie

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Daily Devotions, Coffee, and Dissappointment.

Today is the Day I've been waiting for since Chad and Rachel took over the Youth Group.
It's the day we got our Engage book, which is our new daily devotion book. Im super pumped about this because now I have something solid to follow thats not in Psalms. I am also excited about this because I do not have to rely on somebody. I can do this by myself!!! I dont have to have somebody teach me, I dont have to do this with other people, I can be by myself, with my White Lightening (eek!! :D) doing my devos. No distractions, no people asking me questions, nobody talking, and best of all..the people involved (me&God&Bigby) are taking it seriously!!
So needless to say, this is going to be my afternoon today. and my morning for the next 90 days :)
Love&Rockets
Aggie



Saturday, August 28, 2010

The best is yet to come..

The feelings of the past blog have not gone away but things are looking up.
It still hurts. Im still sad but 2 days later and things arent so bad.
I know Im not happy and maybe Im missing out on what really makes me happy but right now I guess I have to find something new that makes me feel amamzing, that makes me feel like I belong because I obviously dont have that at the moment,
But I will.
I promise.
Im not one to give up on things but sometimes its not giving up its just needing a change of scenary. Thats what I need. 
So maybe I will go back to how I was, happy with those same people, doing the same things.
Or maybe I'll change my scene completly, friends Ive never really hung out with before, places Ive never been, new activities.
But my life from now on is going to be lived with no regrets.
Im going to try and not think about the future, or worry about the past but just to live every moment like it was my last.
Love&Rockets
Aggie

Thursday, August 26, 2010

"If perfects what youre looking for then just stay the same."

I cant do this anymore.
Nothing, and I mean nothing goes right for me.
Im messing everything up.
And it seems like everybody else has better ideas of how I should be.
Like they could make a dream Aggie.
And that girls is nothing like me.
I dont do things right, I make mistakes, My hairs not perfect, I could be taller, I could be faster, I could be smarter, I could be happier, I could be more respectful, I could be silent, I could be less opinionated, I could be more ambitious, I could be more out going, I could be more of a good little Christian girl,I could know more about my future, I could care less about the future, I could be less of a rule breaker.
But guess what?!
IM NOT!
I cant please everybody but nobodys pleased at all right now.
Not even me.
Im not happy. This is not how my life should be. I shouldn't be fretting over what others want from me, I should make my own decisions and stick to my rules and my standards and my morals.
But I'm so confused about what exactly they are that I cant even stick to them.
You know that saying "Be true to yourself"?
What deos that mean? Someone, please enlighten me.
Because I have no idea who I am, or what I want to be really.
There are sooo many people that I want to be true to, that I want to please, that I want to like me.
I just cant do it. I can't make myself happy without pleaing or dissappointing others.
Now my test is to determine who exactly those people are.
And maybe, just maybe, I'll be happy with myself somehow, sometime.
But that is not going to happen anytime soon.
Love&Rockets
Aggie

Sunday, August 22, 2010

I am not myself.

Lately I have not been feeling on my A game. Not physically, but emotionally. I feel as though I keep letting people down and I cant stop. I have this overwhelming negative attitude. I cant stay postivie for very long. I feel very much depressed all the time. My life is not what it used to be. I am constently fighting with my parents or someone else. And it seems as though my friends (even my youth group friends) dont care anymore. I know theyve got their own lives and problems but Ive always listened to theirs cant they listen to mine too. Im important too,right?! And I dont want to hear "You're important to God." Because I know that. But I want to be important to people, I need people to care to. But they just dont.
Not so Love&Rockets
Aggie.

Monday, August 16, 2010

North Carolina.(DISCLAIMER: theis is a JOKE!!)

Its decided. I am going to UNC for college, well its not completly official because I havent been accepted just yet but when I set a goal, I make it.
Butt Im going to have ea sort of tag along with me.
His name is Gabe.
And he is going to live in my apartment with me, and he is going to be my 24 hour security.
Actually he's just going to mooch off of me.
But don't worry its not like we'll ever see each other because I'll be at school or studying or working or doing homework and He'll be out partying.
So how is He going to be my protection if he's not around?
Well, He says that he will make it be known that we are living together and that people should not mess with me.
Hahaha what an awesome future, huh?!
 Love&Rockets
Aggie

AJB


This boy may be a brat, he may be difficult sometimes, he may be loud and he may cry alot but this boy is my world.
His cute little crooked smile can change my mood in a second, They way he talks and repeats whatever you say brightens my day.
Hes a great big ball of energy, never, ever, sitting down.
Hes a rough 'n' tumble boy
He's tough but when he ask you to hold him or kiss his "boo-boo", well, theres nothing better than that
He's the cutest little blonde boy,ever
and Im probabl biased.
My brother is the luckiest man in the world.
This baby boy looks up to him with everything.
He wants to be, "Just like Daddy."



Friday, August 13, 2010

The Office.

I had never really consider Rodney and Deannas move in a serious way.

But today, today it happened.

I had gotten to church early and decided "Oh well I can go into Rodneys office and chill for a while."

BAD IDEA!

I went into the office and to my surprise there was only:

-The coke from our "More Coke" skit

-The Winter Rumble Sign

-Pennies for the gumball machiene that he took

-2 desks

-A Lord of the Rings action figure

-The coffee table

-Those stupid Ken Ham videos

-and a message "We love and will miss each and every one of you"

I cried.

For a reallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreally long time.

I cant believe it, They are really gone. They arent suppossed to be done yet, I had soo much more to ask them. Im not done learning.

Forever, and theres nothing I can do about it.

This is the part that scares me the most.

Love&Rockets

Aggie

My Future.

Sooo..This morning I realized that I am going to be Junior this year..

That means Im almost done!

And thats probably the the most exciting,scariest thing ever.

But heres what got me, I have NO PLANS!!!

Granted I have Dreams. But they are by No means Plans

I have goals, but the harsh realization hit today that I have no way of getting to those goals.

And that scares me,just a little but more than a little

So heres where I run into a problem.'I don't know where to start MAKING these ever important plans..

Any suggestions?



Love&Rockets

Aggie


Best Freind Blog Part-Lauren

So, Lauren Paige Rosenau is my best friend in the ENTIRE world.

We have been friends for,well forever.

Haha thats not completly true, It took her a while to become un-shy towards me :)

but regardless, we were friends :)

I could bring her ANY of my problems and she would either give me advice or help me figure it out.

we have the exact same everything

we are,exactly the same.

except,shes taller.

People at church used to call us the "Aggie and Lauren Show" because we did everything thing together.

If someone wanted me to babysit or help in childrens church it was implied tha twe come as a pair, if one goes, we both go.

Ive never been judged by Lauren.

And she was always honest.

Still is,

She is my best friend and I wouldnt have it any other way.

Love&Rockets

Aggie.

Best Friend Blog-Part Gabe

Gabriel Stuart Gibson-

We met at school my freshman year. And here we are Junior Year, close as ever.

He's the greatest friend a girl could ask for.

Although, He has a bit of an Ego problem but we're working on that ;)

Because he's older than me he has been the person I come to for advice,about EVERYTHING.

Which was weird becasue when I first met Him I never thought Id be talking to him like I am now.Honestly, I didnt really like Him when I first met Him.

Now, two years later, I love Him to death.

He has been for me through everything.

He even came to the hospital with mewhen my mom had surgery for her breast cancer.

I will NEVER for as long as I live forget that moment when he asked me if he could come with me.

I couldnt believee it,nor did I understand why he would want to.But he did and I am forever grateful for that.

Gabe and I had become so close it was crazy.

Closer than I had ever gotten with anybody except Lauren.

This Boy had become My Life.

He held all the information to crush me, all my secrets, everything and yet he didnt..

Weird,Right?!

This Boy,He's my best friend.

Love&Rockets

Aggie

Hebrews 11:1

I have nothing more to say except that I LOVE this passage, I read it for devotions this morning and I think you should read it and study it too...



Hebrew 11 (The Message Version)





1-2The fundamental fact of existence is that this trust in God, this faith, is the firm foundation under everything that makes life worth living. It's our handle on what we can't see. The act of faith is what distinguished our ancestors, set them above the crowd.

3By faith, we see the world called into existence by God's word, what we see created by what we don't see.



4By an act of faith, Abel brought a better sacrifice to God than Cain. It was what he believed, not what he brought, that made the difference. That's what God noticed and approved as righteous. After all these centuries, that belief continues to catch our notice.



5-6By an act of faith, Enoch skipped death completely. "They looked all over and couldn't find him because God had taken him." We know on the basis of reliable testimony that before he was taken "he pleased God." It's impossible to please God apart from faith. And why? Because anyone who wants to approach God must believe both that he exists and that he cares enough to respond to those who seek him.



7By faith, Noah built a ship in the middle of dry land. He was warned about something he couldn't see, and acted on what he was told. The result? His family was saved. His act of faith drew a sharp line between the evil of the unbelieving world and the rightness of the believing world. As a result, Noah became intimate with God.



8-10By an act of faith, Abraham said yes to God's call to travel to an unknown place that would become his home. When he left he had no idea where he was going. By an act of faith he lived in the country promised him, lived as a stranger camping in tents. Isaac and Jacob did the same, living under the same promise. Abraham did it by keeping his eye on an unseen city with real, eternal foundations—the City designed and built by God.



11-12By faith, barren Sarah was able to become pregnant, old woman as she was at the time, because she believed the One who made a promise would do what he said. That's how it happened that from one man's dead and shriveled loins there are now people numbering into the millions.



13-16Each one of these people of faith died not yet having in hand what was promised, but still believing. How did they do it? They saw it way off in the distance, waved their greeting, and accepted the fact that they were transients in this world. People who live this way make it plain that they are looking for their true home. If they were homesick for the old country, they could have gone back any time they wanted. But they were after a far better country than that—heaven country. You can see why God is so proud of them, and has a City waiting for them.



17-19By faith, Abraham, at the time of testing, offered Isaac back to God. Acting in faith, he was as ready to return the promised son, his only son, as he had been to receive him—and this after he had already been told, "Your descendants shall come from Isaac." Abraham figured that if God wanted to, he could raise the dead. In a sense, that's what happened when he received Isaac back, alive from off the altar.



20By an act of faith, Isaac reached into the future as he blessed Jacob and Esau.



21By an act of faith, Jacob on his deathbed blessed each of Joseph's sons in turn, blessing them with God's blessing, not his own—as he bowed worshipfully upon his staff.



22By an act of faith, Joseph, while dying, prophesied the exodus of Israel, and made arrangements for his own burial.



23By an act of faith, Moses' parents hid him away for three months after his birth. They saw the child's beauty, and they braved the king's decree.



24-28By faith, Moses, when grown, refused the privileges of the Egyptian royal house. He chose a hard life with God's people rather than an opportunistic soft life of sin with the oppressors. He valued suffering in the Messiah's camp far greater than Egyptian wealth because he was looking ahead, anticipating the payoff. By an act of faith, he turned his heel on Egypt, indifferent to the king's blind rage. He had his eye on the One no eye can see, and kept right on going. By an act of faith, he kept the Passover Feast and sprinkled Passover blood on each house so that the destroyer of the firstborn wouldn't touch them.



29By an act of faith, Israel walked through the Red Sea on dry ground. The Egyptians tried it and drowned.



30By faith, the Israelites marched around the walls of Jericho for seven days, and the walls fell flat.



31By an act of faith, Rahab, the Jericho harlot, welcomed the spies and escaped the destruction that came on those who refused to trust God.



32-38I could go on and on, but I've run out of time. There are so many more— Gideon, Barak, Samson, Jephthah, David, Samuel, the prophets....Through acts of faith, they toppled kingdoms, made justice work, took the promises for themselves. They were protected from lions, fires, and sword thrusts, turned disadvantage to advantage, won battles, routed alien armies. Women received their loved ones back from the dead. There were those who, under torture, refused to give in and go free, preferring something better: resurrection. Others braved abuse and whips, and, yes, chains and dungeons. We have stories of those who were stoned, sawed in two, murdered in cold blood; stories of vagrants wandering the earth in animal skins, homeless, friendless, powerless—the world didn't deserve them!—making their way as best they could on the cruel edges of the world.



39-40Not one of these people, even though their lives of faith were exemplary, got their hands on what was promised. God had a better plan for us: that their faith and our faith would come together to make one completed whole, their lives of faith not complete apart from ours

Psalms 34 (The Message Version)

1 I bless God every chance I get; my lungs expand with his praise.


-Do I bless the Lord every chance I get?






2 I live and breathe God;


if things aren't going well, hear this and be happy:


-Live and Breathe God...


-Be happy in Him














3 Join me in spreading the news;


together let's get the word out.


-Am I doing my part to get his word out?






4 God met me more than halfway,


he freed me from my anxious fears.


-HE FREES US FROM FEARS...FOREVER!!


-He has met me more than halfway...can I go the rest?






5 Look at Him; give him your warmest smile.


Never hide your feelings from Him.


-He can be my best friend if I let him...






6 When I was desperate, I called out,


and God got me out of a tight spot.


-He has the power to get me out of EVERY tight spot...no matter what or why or where


As long as I ask..He wont do anything I dont ask Him to..






7 God's angel sets up a circle


of protection around us while we pray.


-PRAY!!!!






8 Open your mouth and taste, open your eyes and see—


how good God is.


Blessed are you who run to him.


-He is soooo Good!! Open your eyes and see!! Our God is GRREAT!


-We will experience great things if we run to Him for help.






9 Worship God if you want the best;


worship opens doors to all his goodness.


-If you want good things from God just worship Him, it makes Him happy :))






10 Young lions on the prowl get hungry,


but God-seekers are full of God.


-If I seek God I will be so satisfied I won't need or want to seek anyone/thing else.






11 Come, children, listen closely;


I'll give you a lesson in God worship.


-What can I say to explain this except, "Shut Up andListen."






12 Who out there has a lust for life?


Can't wait each day to come upon beauty?






13 Guard your tongue from profanity,


and no more lying through your teeth.


-Don't Lie Guys, it makes God sad.






14 Turn your back on sin; do something good.


Embrace peace—don't let it get away!


-If you are always negative, you will never find peace.






15 God keeps an eye on his friends,


his ears pick up every moan and groan.


-God will always always always hear you. He's the maker of the universe and Creator of us all and HE CARES


-All I can think about is the song by Tenth Avenue North "Hold my Heart."






16 God won't put up with rebels;


he'll cull them from the pack.


-This speaks for itself,dont be a rebel.






17 Is anyone crying for help? God is listening,


ready to rescue you.


-God will rescue you if you need rescued..but sometimes youre stronger than you think.






18 If your heart is broken, you'll find God right there;


if you're kicked in the gut, he'll help you catch your breath.


-This is my favorite verse.


-even if your heart is broken God NEVER turns his back on you, ever


-The "kicked in the Gut" part cracks me up with the striking reality of it..






19 Disciples so often get into trouble;


still, God is there every time.


-Even when I do something bad, even if Im in DIRECT SIN God is there..watching me.






20 He's your bodyguard, shielding every bone;


not even a finger gets broken.


-I love thinking of God as a bodyguard, imagining Him in a black suit with black sunglasses standing between me and the world. :)






21 The wicked commit slow suicide;


they waste their lives hating the good.


-Are you wasting your life?






22 God pays for each slave's freedom;


no one who runs to him loses out.


-He died for EVERYONE! Ane He turns no one down! What a great God :)










Love&Rockets


Aggie

To my Future Husband.

I know I know, Some of you are gonna be like "Youre 16,SHUT UP!!"

but Ive been thinking a lot about this lately.

About how I want to meet my future husband and have that automatic shock so that I just know..

I hope I dont have to go through a bunch of guys to find him.

Someone once told me that I should be so caught up in Jesus that he has to go through Jesus first to meet me.

Im gonna try that philosphy.

But...I want to meet him NOW!!!

I know who I want it to be, but Im pretty sure Im wrong...

So future husband, just know that Im waiting for you.



Love&Rockets

Aggie

Beyond Words- Tenth Avenue North

Tenth Avenue North is my new obsession. And I L-O-V-E Beyond Words
Its my favorite song so far. Here are the Words.
well if you only knew the pain that ive been through


since when did it become all about you

as you can see from the start ive said the truth

And if the truth means nothing to you

then what am i supposed to do?



and ill still love you

beyond what words can say

ill take your every suffering moment

and bring a better day

ill still love you

more than what i hope to be

let me wrap my arms around you

let me take your breath away



and every time i ask

you assure your doing fine

but your heart looks good by smiling

you couldnt fool mine

and by the end of the night your pillow sits to dry

in a crowded room your singing

but on the inside you sigh



and ill still love you

beyond what words can say

ill take your every suffering moment

and bring a better day

ill still love you

more then what i hope to be

let me wrap my arms around you

let me take your breath away



in a ball room there is dancing

in a forest there are trees

in a child theres a hope

that keeps him in belief

with any star there is a sky

with any beach theres a sea

with any love song theres a lover

and in your heart i hope its....



and ill still love you

beyond what words can say

ill take your every suffering moment

and bring a better day

and ill still love you

more then what i hope to be



let me wrap my arms around you

let me wrap my arms around you

let me wrap my arms around you

let me take your breath away

<33

Thanksgiving in August.

Today I thought I would share with you things that I am thankful for (in no particular order.). And yes, some of it is going to be lame like the things you do at thanksgiving time but you will just have to deal wih it. :)
 
  • I am thankful for my mom and dad and brothers

  • I am thank for freedom!
  • I am thankful for my best friend Lauren
  • I am thankful for an eternal God
  • I am thankful that I dont have to be ashamed
  • I am thankful for grace
  • I am thankful that I am worth something to God if not to people
  • I am thankful for the ablity to Love 
  • I am thankful for the Sun
  • I am thankful for people who take their faith seriously
  • I am thankful for the abilty to be able to speak my mind :)

  • I am thankful for INTERNET!
  • I am thankful for music
  • I am thankful for education
  • I am thankful for my house
  • I am thankful for my awsesome church (and all the people in it)
  • I am thankful for my Youth Pastor and His Wife
  • I am thankful for the blessing of children
  • I am thankful for Water :p
  • I am thankful for being alive
  • I am thankful for being an intricate part of Gods plan
  • I am thankful for PINE RIDGE BIBLE CAMP
  • I am thankful for surprises
 
Those are just some of the things I am thankful for...
 
Love&Rockets,
 
Aggie


 

Get to know me.

Soo...I forgot that I should maybe give you a formal introduction into the life of Aggie. So , I'll introduce myself...

My School is Marshall Academy

Im a Griffon& the colors are blue and gold ;)

And we wear Uniforms

my favorite collor is yellow

I love it when people are happy

I like the whole riding with the windows down, radio blasting,head bangning, singing at the top of your lungs thing.

I love Sun but the Rain gives me peace

I have 2 brothers one oler and one younger

I have an ongoing Bucket List

I have a blonde haired blue eyed almost 3 year old nephew and I love him

My favorite animal is a giraffe

Volleyball is my sport

I love watching football

Im addicted to music

Pine Ridge Bible Camp is my Summer Home

I love bracelets

I have a best friend named Lauren Paige Rosenau

Im 16 and working on the whole getting a liscene thing

I go to First Baptist Church

Facebook Facebook Facebook

I wear flip flops year round

The Wizard of Oz and The Blind Side are my favorite movies of all time

I like zebra stripes and peace signs

I live in the smallest town EVER!

I tend to use bog words sometimes

I L-O-V-E English History and Math

I hate Strawberries and Banannas

I love Freezer pops

I like to experiment with my clothes

Im terrible with money

Ive only died my hair once in my entire life

I want to be a Social Worker

iPod Touch :))

Knuckle cracking freaks.me.out.

I dont agree with over half of the rules of the "Christian Culture"

I dont like being told that Im wrong but if I am I'll own up to it

If I could live in a library , I would

Im a planner, I neeeed a plan at all time

I like to sleep in late

My favorite Candy is Swedish Fish or Charms Blow Pops

DOVE CHOCOLATE

I dont like Soda all that much

I love Kids

Tenth Avenue North <3

I have blue eyes

Lakes are not my thing, Im more of a Pool girl

Confession : I go to the tanners.

I wear lots of make-up

Im definitly not a people pleaser

Family Matters.Above All

I love to Sing, but I sing for my God, in total worship. I dont want to do it for any other reason

AGNES.GRACEE.HAYS

15 Letters. 3 Words. 1 Girl with a Big Heart

God of Wonders.

For the last month I have been working (and living) at Pine Ridge Bible Camp in Cedar Springs. And at first I was quite hesitant as to whether or not I really wanted to do this. But the Lord layed on my heart how me not going could effect some little childrens lives for the worse. So....

I went.

And in Hindsight I do not regret making that decision at all..

When I first arrived I started to compare myself to the other people there and I began to think about how inadequete I was to these men and women who devoted their entire being to the Lord. As I was comparing myself to them It felt as if God was telling me,

"You can Love Me like that. It'll be hard, you'll have to do some work but you can be devoted too."

And it was.

Probably the Hardest thing Ive ever done.

I was now in an intimate friendship with a person I couldnt see.

Makes me sound a little bit crazy.huh?!

But regardless, this is the best friendship Ive ever had with the greatest and best friend who will never fail me.

While at camp I devloped this friendship and I really began to understand how much God really loves me and everyone else. Now I will never know exactly how much he loves us because his love is greater than anyone can ever understand but I have been able to see how unconditional His love is.

Im ashamed to say that before this experience at camp I never really took my faith seriously. At camp I began to talk with God and read His word and it was as if He was talking back to me. The more I began to learn the more He used me in ways I could have never imagined.

There are sooo many specific stories I could tell you and I will tell them to you if you ask me.

but for right now I just wanted to share what God had taught me this Month and Im a list person so..



1.He loves us more than anyone ever will

2.He never EVER fails us

3. He uses ordinary people to do extraordinary things

4.He never works in the ways you would expect

5.If you let Him, He will blow your mind!!!

6.He teaches even the unteachable





These are just some of the things I was blessed with this month and maybe I'll think of more later If you have questions you can ask.

Love&Rockets
Aggie